You see I always think that I was never good enough or even enough. I never see myself being content with the things that oi have. I blame it to ambitions. I blame it to love. I blame it to people who spoiled me with love. Yet, I am always thankful. I am always thankful that I was blessed with not only god people. Best friends. Loving family. I am thankful that I have these values that I learned from all the experiences I’ve went through. The failures, frustrations, pains and the least laughter. Good old laughter. I miss that. I miss having to feel this freedom. Freedom that at last made me come to my senses. I worked hard for this freedom. I worked hard to achieve this peace. I worked hard to appreciate what had happened. I always work hard for the things that I want although it may not be what everybody wants. I’ll work hard for what everybody wants now, not because it’s the right thing they think it would be for me, but I know that it will be the best thing I could offer myself and my world.

For the past that I have given my life to, thank you for maing me realize  that how different we are. I knew that from the start but I still keep on pushing what I want because I did love you. Yet, everything must come to an end and God saw that I’ve been trying so hard to make everything work but it’s not that simple. It’s getting unfair. God saw how I made you my life and prioritize you which then was a ringing signal of self destruction. I knew all of that. i knew I was falling apart yet I never tried  to gave up because it wasn’t me who easily gives up. I have no regrets making you feel that way because I did all my best and gave all my love that no one can possibly provide you. I know you will never forget me and even if you are  with that person again, I know I’ll always be arounhd your thoughts and inside your heart. With that, justice has been served. 

HELLO BREED!

Indeed there are people who doesn’t have much of a breeding and a simple statement meant a lot of bad things to them. I ain’t a hopeless case. I ain’t pathetic. It’s always you I feel sorry for. I’m glad I even read that and it doesn’t struck me however. It gave me a thought as to how pathetic those kinds of people are. I pity you, lady. I even pity you, gentleman. You two deserved each other and I on the other hand deserve only the best. Although I regret I ever knew you, but somehow I am proud of myself because I know for a fact that I left a mark in your life. I know that I taught you a lot of good things and shared with you a sensible togetherness. Passion wasn’t the case, we both have that and it was a good thing, even the best, but what you were lacking of was a grip. A grip in decisiveness and a grip of what you truly feel.  I can’t blame you however. I know how it feels like handling me. I know I’m a handful but giving up? It wasn’t something I thought  you are even capabale of doing. Well, so now it was in the past and I’ll even start digging up and burrying that tragic story. It’s not good for me nor will it be to those people who greatly value my endeavors. Things happen for a reason and whatever the reason for this phase in my life, I will soon figure out. I wouldn’t again waste my energy trying to console myself that you are still inlove with me. I wouldn’t do a thing that I thought is full of sense and a mature approach to people who have pea-sized  brains. I thought everybody’s like me. I thought everybody has a wide understanding and perspective like me. I’m sorry, my bad. I am only surrounded with those kinds of people. I am still on the winning stand because another rotten tomato was definitely out of my box. Cheers to a happy life!