STROKES

May I see you now?

Yesterday was surreal.

And tomorrow's going to be

the waking part of me.

I keep hovering, oh it's daunting!

bubbles of anticipation...

to prick or let it pop,

or make it fall and fade.

You keep running,

I am chasing.

unaware, I keep babbling.

this tiny heart's pursuit

seeking kicks and punches.

Yeah, never mind

this won't be exhausting. 

today, i woke up and ran through my collective pens.

I took this one of different shade,

And I saw you, like you're near.

The beautiful canvass of hues and clues...

A resplendent masterpiece.

Thank God, the mighty artist. 

I explored; my thoughts astray,

caught a sight of you, the magnificent portrait. 

with soul hidden and unbidden

of crashes and clashes,

of beauty and perfection,

of spirit and light.

with eyes slightly closed, 

I let my fingers ran along the marks and linger;

In your heart, the paint, only I could trace,

Feel the warmth and define you by my senses.

Inside you, I can hear the beating;

I wish I could glimpse.

Do allow me. 

Beginning...

I've been dreading for this moment. To finally have my mind regain it's usual steep and my emotions' freesoul. I thought I have murdered it and buried it nowhere but yet, my body knew when to start walking the thought. There in the dark corner of the abyss, I found it and had a hard time pulling it up. It was so hard I almost gave up and just end my life. Then a thought struck me: Is there still anything that will make me quit? Life had offered me lot of flavors and it never ceases to give me some more. Yes, there could be a lot more than just those you have tasted but the thing is, I cannot put it in words. But here is what I have to say then; life is too simple. The things that complicate it are those demands that are brought about by education. Why can't it simply end with the basics?

 Change is the only constant thing and our lives are evolving and so do we. I don't know what life really is, no one knows until you live it. Wikipedia is only for reference, but it won't tell you how you should live it. This is reality, and with the harshness of the world, we need experience. This will teach us how to cope and battle with this immortal soldiers.

I'll start anew.
I can say I'm reborn.
Yes, this is also where I am going to share my journey and how I have grown up, not physically, but emotionally, mentally and spiritually.

I have died many times, but I have chosen to get up and get going.

The reason I survived? HOPE. and this will still be the reason why I continue to seek for happiness and be thankful that everyday I still get to see man's beautiful chaos.

POISED

* this I wrote a while back when I was at my utmost anger and pain. And I would want to share this..


I ain't a villain
but I've anger from pain
I keep it tightened
Inside, locked up and burnin'
Cursin', swearin', believin'
That a day will pass I'll never keep holdin'.

Your face sends me shiver
From sheer anger vast as a river
I torture, yeah, i might kill her
That bitch's ass better fuck this favor!

And you, son of a bitch, are a sucker
For ugly truths you're damn ill- mannered!
I swear I'll never stop nor pause for that matter
Till you drop your head and fuckin' kiss my crimson top-sider!