what is still out there to make me feel worst? you see, i have everything in life experienced. i don't have to wait and wail about some issues because i am done doing it. i get away to search for something i do not even know what. i get away to somehow self-actualize, and yes i did. i get away to make me feel sober from all the spirits i have had in my hometown. i get away just to quench my thirst and now i am over hydrated. i didn't get away to really get away from him. what has all our memories do with that? it will always haunt me especially that i am alone and memories just keep on coming back... raw and fresh. i still silently cry at night reminiscing all those moments that had caused enormous pain and the moments that had caused joyful exuberance. i would still think about the one time i really felt like i was choked and that breathing was really hard. it would make me think, "how could that be so possible?" but then, things happen and if it pass as quickly as u blink, then good for you.
this time has been both a boon and a bane.i guess this is the best time i ever had in my life since i let things happen the way it's supposed to be. nobody holds it and nobody sets things freely. i am managing the events. i am taming my emotions. i am writing every chapters the best way i could. i am reviewing from all my bad experiences, and i am including His guidance in every step i take. what has life in store for me will always be bittersweet, yet i know that i will be the sweetest pea in the end. i don't have to agonize because i did not have the major things i wanted in my life right now, instead, i have to be so much thankful that my persistence had lay low. God has a really disapproving way of making us strong and fate has its own playful way of mending our pains. whether, i choose to laugh or to cry, the options will always be significant.
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